It is important to wear clothing with no metal when going for a CT scan. Therefore, as a woman, I need to wear a bra that is not underwire. This way I can avoid having to put on a hospital gown. To get through a scan, I use day dreaming. I dream of wear I will eat lunch, as I had to fast and missed breakfast because I had to drink the chalky drink for scans. I dream of that day I skied 14 inches of fresh powder! I dream of the awesome bucket list trip I took to Costa Rica last year...anything to get my mind off that these scans are a mandatory part of my life due to a diagnosis of stage 4 melanoma.
Granted, I am NED (No Evidence of Disease) for 9 years... I know how sneaky melanoma is and how it is a life wrecker... Melanoma does whatever it wants.
During these crazy days of 2020 it is, more than ever, to GRATEFUL for surviving. Grateful to be ALIVE.
I send prayers out to those who are actively fighting and want you to know that others have been there and we are here, alive and breathing and we know how hard it is to prep for the scans, to not know when the cancer will finally respond to treatment and to know what it is like to plan on telling your family goodbye.
I do not know why I am still here, but I will do my best to spread HOPE and awareness for melanoma!!
